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Flashback #5: Bringing Her Home (#CHDAware)

Sometimes the words of a song are just the words of a song. A beautiful haunting lyric that draws you back over and over, but still just a song. Then, sometimes the same song hits you differently. Tonight, listening to Alfie Boe sing “Bring Him Home,” I felt the song as only a parent can. And as I felt the song, Charlotte laced her fingers through mine and whispered, “Chills.” Jean Valjean prays to God to bring Marius home, to let him live. Truly, those are the only thoughts that go through a parents mind when their child in on the operating table. Any operating table. I don’t care if the general anesthesia is for ear tubes, a tonsillectomy, a heart surgery or a lung transplant. When the doctors wheel your baby away, and you have no control….that’s the sentiment, the lament, the prayer.

And when they say to you, “Okay, you can take her home today,” you cry precious tears of relief. And realize how very lucky you are to hear those words, and no other words.

Last February 17 we heard those words. Yesterday, we were too busy jamming to Gloria & Emilio Estefan’s excellent and joyous On Your Feet to even think about it. Chills indeed.

So, for “throwback Thursday,” I give you Flashback #5: February 17, 2015:

Current StatusSitting in the living room playing Katamino waiting for sushi to be delivered.

Medical UpdateSitting in the living room playing Katamino waiting for sushi to be delivered.

But seriously, Charlotte was discharged around 2:30 today. The day consisted of removing the central line, which was a bit difficult but not nearly as traumatic and traumatizing as any other removal has been. In between crying that she couldn’t do it, Charlotte breathed (deep breath in, breath out “sushi”), and  giggled at Despicable Me 2. Once the central line was removed, she had to lie flat-ish for about 30 minutes. Then we went downstairs for a chest x-ray.

After the chest x-ray, we waited for the prescription delivery and to get the last peripheral IV out.  That last thing is what took the longest, and what made me the most proud.

Charlotte hates having things put in or taken out (can you blame her?) and she also dislikes having medical teams hover around her.

So, she insisted on taking the PIV out herself. Her excellent RN, Katie, sat on one side of the bed, Phil an I on the other. While Katie walked us through the discharge instructions, Charlotte worked on the tegaderm surrounding the IV. She worked and worked, listening to some Katy Perry and Taylor Swift. She vacillated between “I can’t do this” and “I’ve got this.”  The last little bit was really difficult. Both Katie and then Holly, the APN on duty, helped Charlotte strategize how to approach the tape.

Finally, she got all worked up, “I can’t do this. I’m never going to be able to do this.” Then silence, then “Oh, it’s out.”

She did. The sushi is here. Have a good night, ya’ll.

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Charlotte heads home wearing sweat pants and fancy boots. Best combination ever. (Caption credit: Charlotte)

 

 

 


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Flashback #4: What does awesome mean to you? (#CHDAware)

A year ago, Charlotte declared her status to be “Awesome as usual.” Today, 370 days after her third open heart surgery, I can attest that awesome IS usual for her. And by “awesome” I mean causing feelings related to the “dread, veneration, and wonder that is inspired by authority or by the sacred or sublime,” as defined by Merriam-Wesbster. I am awed, truly, by modern medicine. When I think that had I been born with truncus arteriosis type I, I likely would not be writing this blog post, I can’t help but feel veneration for the scientists who dared to dream that they could fix a broken heart. If those surgeons want to think they are gods, well, probably they are at the very least, godlike.

Now for the Flashback: 2/15/2015: Current status: Charlotte says that her current status is “Awesome as usual.” Clearly, her ego has recovered 🙂 She’s weaning herself from all things “i” and spent the morning on a craft project sent by a most excellent pair of twin 10-year olds. They also sent stuffed versions of what Charlotte misses most from home.With Ty Fred and Ginger

 

Medical update: The writing of this blog post was interrupted for…the removal of the chest tubes! Charlotte was a bit anxious about it so we medicated her. The Versed kicked in right after the tubes came out so she is blissfully listening to Taylor Swift right now and telling me how good her lemonade is.

After chest tubes were removed, Charlotte had an x-ray. She needs an echo. With normal results on those two things her central line should come out tomorrow and then we get to go home!

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Let me check out my lung x-ray. I can see the wire around the conduit. Cool. (Umm….no comments about my bed head, please!)

In the meantime, she’s been taking bigger and bigger walks. One big goal was to visit the Founder’s Board Treehouse on the 12th floor.DSCN1220

 

Mission accomplished! Lindsay, the APN on duty today, believes Charlotte won’t remember this visit or photo, so we’ll go again later.

We’re down to Lasix once a day, baby aspirin, pain meds as needed and Miralax. While she will go home with a few meds, nothing is long term.

On a sad note, Bubba’s nose is falling off. We’ve had to call in reinforcements. Introducing “the spare bear.”

DSCN1215Today’s cheery update brought to you by the “Flock of Docs.” That’s Dr. Backer all the way to the left. He’s pretty happy about today’s news!

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Medical Update 6 Days Post Surgery

Current StatusSitting in the living room playing Katamino waiting for sushi to be delivered.

Medical UpdateSitting in the living room playing Katamino waiting for sushi to be delivered.

But seriously, Charlotte was discharged around 2:30 today. The day consisted of removing the central line, which was a bit difficult but not nearly as traumatic and traumatizing as any other removal has been. In between crying that she couldn’t do it, Charlotte breathed (deep breath in, breath out “sushi”), and  giggled at Despicable Me 2. Once the central line was removed, she had to lie flat-ish for about 30 minutes. Then we went downstairs for a chest x-ray.

After the chest x-ray, we waited for the prescription delivery and to get the last peripheral IV out.  That last thing is what took the longest, and what made me the most proud.

Charlotte hates having things put in or taken out (can you blame her?) and she also dislikes having medical teams hover around her.

So, she insisted on taking the PIV out herself. Her excellent RN, Katie, sat on one side of the bed, Phil an I on the other. While Katie walked us through the discharge instructions, Charlotte worked on the tegaderm surrounding the IV. She worked and worked, listening to some Katy Perry and Taylor Swift. She vacillated between “I can’t do this” and “I’ve got this.”  The last little bit was really difficult. Both Katie and then Holly, the APN on duty, helped Charlotte strategize how to approach the tape.

Finally, she got all worked up, “I can’t do this. I’m never going to be able to do this.” Then silence, then “Oh, it’s out.”

She did. The sushi is here. Have a good night, ya’ll.

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Charlotte heads home wearing sweat pants and fancy boots. Best combination ever. (Caption credit: Charlotte)

 

 

 


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Medical Update 5 Days Post Surgery (#CHDAware)

Current status: Charlotte that her current status is “Awesome as usual.” Clearly, her ego has recovered 🙂 She’s weaning herself from all things “i” and spent the morning on a craft project sent by a most excellent pair of twin 10 year olds. They also sent stuffed versions of what Charlotte misses most from home.With Ty Fred and Ginger

 

 

Medical update: The writing of this blog post was interrupted for…the removal of the chest tubes! Charlotte was a bit anxious about it so we medicated her. The Versed kicked in right after the tubes came out so she is blissfully listening to Taylor Swift right now and telling me how good her lemonade is.

After chest tubes were removed, Charlotte had an x-ray. She needs an echo. With normal results on those two things her central line should come out tomorrow and then we get to go home!

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Let me check out my lung x-ray. I can see the wire around the conduit. Cool. (Umm….no comments about my bed head, please!)

In the meantime, she’s been taking bigger and bigger walks. One big goal was to visit the Founder’s Board Treehouse on the 12th floor.DSCN1220

 

Mission accomplished! Lindsay, the APN on duty today, believes Charlotte won’t remember this visit or photo, so we’ll go again later.

We’re down to Lasix once a day, baby aspirin, pain meds as needed and Miralax. While she will go home with a few meds, nothing is long term.

On a sad note, Bubba’s nose is falling off. We’ve had to call in reinforcements. Introducing “the spare bear.”

DSCN1215Today’s cheery update brought to you by the “Flock of Docs.” That’s Dr. Backer all the way to the left. He’s pretty happy about today’s news!

Flock of Docs


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Medical Update 4 Days Post Surgery (#CHDAware)

Current Status: After an hour of the card game Sleeping Queens and 20 minutes of reading The G-Man Super Journal, Charlotte finally deigned to take a nap this afternoon. It took her a while to get comfortable, but she seems to be sleeping. Phil stayed last night, so I can only conjecture, but I think she’d been awake more or less since 8 a.m. and she didn’t sleep too well after the 4 a.m. x-ray, so she’s pretty beat.

Medical Update: The chest tubes are still draining more and darker than the surgeons would like, so they will not come out before tomorrow. That pushes “go home” day until at least Tuesday. Needless to say, we’re all disappointed, none more so than Charlotte. But we don’t want the tubes to come out and then need to go back in. So, we wait.

Other than that, she’s looking good. She didn’t require oxygen last night. Phil talked the docs into changing one of her oral meds to something that she won’t cry about (we had a 3o minute drama last night over a medication’s taste and Charlotte’s refusal to take it). She took two good walks today and she can mostly get to and go the bathroom herself. She’s still in pain but is a bit of a stoic and won’t ask for more medication.

So, this is the boring part, the part that makes everyone a little short-tempered and less than their best self–the waiting. We have no control over the chest drainage and have no choice other than to wait it out.

 


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Medical Update 3 Days Post Repair (#CHDAware)

Current Status: Charlotte slept for the better part of 8 hours last night, only waking when the x-ray tech came at 4 a.m. Now, while I dislike the 4 a.m. x-ray, I love that it comes to here. So much less disruption than when we had to wheel her to the medical imaging suite. And she (and I) fell back to sleep easily. Since she didn’t move in her sleep, she woke up achey and super grumpy. Then breakfast took a long time to arrive. Then her visitor couldn’t come onto the floor before 10 a.m. The first few hours of Valentine’s Day were not good.

Now, however, Charlotte is watching a movie with her BFF Phoebe (who everyone thinks is an adult so she can come into the hospital. While in measure of years she is definitely over 18, in spirit she is a wonderful combination of 26 and 9. They are perfect together!)

Medical Update: Charlotte’s oxygen saturation plummeted during her sleep. Her magical night nurse managed to get the oxygen cannula into her nose without waking Charlotte up and easily remedied the situation.

Overnight, Charlotte’s right chest tube started draining more again, and darker. That means that the chest tubes can’t come out until tomorrow, which may mean that we’re not going home until Monday. Not our favorite news, but we understand. (Charlotte won’t, so we haven’t told her yet.)

She did get up and walk yesterday. In fact, last night she voluntarily sat up when Rabbi Conover came for Shabbat and then ate dinner sitting in the chair. She then walked to a window at the far end of the ward, about 100 yards. She was pooped afterwords, but we were so proud.

Dilaudid has been stopped and Charlotte is on one pain med regularly, another as needed, baby aspirin and Lasix.

Acquisitions UpdateI have to note that since arriving here, Charlotte has acquired 3 new blankets, 5 new stuffed animals, dolls, books, countless handmade valentines, game, activities, cookies,  and I don’t know what else. Different volunteer groups have created Valentine goodies for the children. One of the blankets came from Mended Little Hearts with a whole tote bag of goodies. I am humbled by the generosity of volunteers and families that give back in an effort to make children’s hospital stays more comfortable And I am grateful to our friends and family who are keeping Charlotte in their thoughts and prayers. Gifts are so NOT necessary, as you all know.

She naps. We soldier on.

 


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Shabbat Shalom (#CHDAware)

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When Rabbi Conover asked yesterday what she could do for us, Philippe had the genius idea to ask her to help us celebrate Shabbat. Thanks, Phil, for realizing that bringing our family tradition to the hospital would make us all feel more at home. Charlotte sat up voluntarily, smiled at the sight of the candles and challah and we all benefitted from the rabbi’s blessing and the light she always shines on us.

Somewhere my father is smiling on us. I know he is. And in New Jersey, Massachusetts, Virginia and Georgia, I know the rest of the family is, too.

Charlotte’s interventionist cardiologist stopped by to say hi as we finished. Both he and our nurse said, “I smell challah. Sorry to have missed your celebration.”

Shabbat Shalom, ya’ll.

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